There isn't a soul alive who wants to remember painful memories, especially memories of violent abuse, and yet every single abuse victim needs spiritual healing. In our flesh we devise various coping mechanisms to keep painful memories suppressed - alcohol, rock music, drugs, or plain denial. In Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) the body copes with extreme abuse by fragmenting the personality into subpersonalities or alters. These alters contain the memories of the abuse and nearly all of them are demonised in one form or another. The demons provide the narcosis to enable them not to remember, and the narcosis is usually a numbing of the feelings. Demons exist which specialise in this, particularly Hecate. This narcosis comes, however, at a heavy price for the suffering alter, and that price is demonic control.
At numerous times during my ministry I have come across this narcotic mechanism, best described as a kind of demonic anaesthesia. And like the chemical variety of narcotic, whether it be cocaine or some other drug, there is a terrible price to pay. Just as cocaine creates a bodily dependency on it (an addiction), and just as the drug-abuser comes to believe that he cannot survive without the drug, so an alter under heavy demonic sedation comes to believe she cannot survive without her demonic helpers.
I have even come across 'deals' struck by various alters in multiple systems. In one instance I recall an alter who was brutalised by the satanic coven and could not cope with the pain, so another alter, who had been much hardened by demonisation, agreed to hold the pain for her if at a prearranged time she would agree to yield total control of her body to that alter. This was all contrived by the demons, of course, who by this gained yet one further level of control.
As I have pointed out over and over again, demons retain their control by instilling fear, by intimidation, and by getting the human host to make 'deals' or engage in contracts, in order to get certain demonic 'services' like the numbing of pain. These diabolical 'deals' never benefit the suffering alter, and indeed the demons almost never keep their end of the bargain, and even when they do, only as long as it suits their egocentric interests. They do not care one wit for their victims, even if they can, and do, often present themselves as benefactors to their victims and try to elicity their sympathy (the 'Stockholm Syndrome'). When that happens, a perverse loyalty can often be shown by alters to their tormentors.
It has to be understood - and this is not easy for those who have never been so abused to understand - that the levels of abuse SRA victims have suffered is almost beyond human comprehension in its horror. How do you forget, for instance, multiple rape by 9 or 10 satanists whilst tied to a cross when you are at a tender age of about 12? How do you forget witnessing satanists cut open your chest, rip out your unborn baby, and stab it to death on a satanic altar before your very eyes? How do you deal with the memory of such awful events? However well-meaning some Christians, or even non-Christians may be, glib anmswers like 'time will heal' or other worse than useless (and actually harmful) suggestions like hypnosis (for example), are a waste of time. Nothing short of supernatural healing can mend these tortured souls.
The good news for all victims of SRA is that Yah'shua the Messiah (Jesus Christ) can, does, and wants to, heal painful memories. He is able to do so by virtue of the fact that as the Son of God, He willingly took upon Himself all the sins of mankind - every man and woman that has ever lived and who will live, upon Himself. What this means is that every pain and sorrow He took upon His human body and lived through it all. The pain and anguish of bearing this terrible load - worse by a million times of the sufferings if any SRA victim - means that He not only understands and feels for every victim of abuse, but, by virtue of His Deity, is able also to supernaturally heal them. When you, the victim, were being abused, He was there representedly being abused also, and carrying your load. All you have to do is give it to Him! This He wants you to do. This is His own free choice. Moreover - and this is critical - this is the only way that any of us can adequately deal with the problem of sin and pain. This was the mission His Father, Yahweh, sent Him to do, and which cost both of them deep anguish. However, it also brought them great joy because of the joy they knew salvation and deliverance would bring to the captives of Satan! That is why Yah'shua (Jesus) went to the Cross - He went knowing the fruits His agony would bring. And Satan hates that - because Yah'shua's (Jesus') suffering, once accepted by the abuse victim, means the end of Satan's power over her.
Yah'shua (Jesus) endured the pain of the suffering of the abuse victim, and every other sinner, because of the joy that was set before Him. He was able to prophetically see the job of the delivered captive, and that was what drove Him to do the job.
"Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Yah'shua (Jesus), the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God" (Heb.12:1-2, NKJV).
Even so, almost every abuse victim struggled with the idea that their pain can ever be taken away. They have suffered so much and for so long that it seems as though such a life of darkness, misery, pain anmd despair can never end. And, yes, that it how it seems to humans who do not know the supernatural deliverance of Christ.
I was recently discussing this very subject to an alter of an SRA victim which I am going to share with you. It provoked such fear and anger in the demons that they cut off our conversation. And when demons do that, you can be 100% sure that you are a threat to their power and control, and that the truth has stared them in the face. The names of the original persons have been changed, Aleithia being the original victim (before fragmentation) and Charis one of the alters, called here 'Victim'. The earlier part of the conversation has been omitted.
The point I was trying to make was as follows: no matter what pain you have suffered, no matter how much evil you have seen, no matter how much darkness you have lived in your life, when Yah'shua (Jesus) enters your life the effect of His presence will be to make all that pain, evil and darkness to be of no effect. You will not forget the past but the sting of it will be gone:
Victim: I have nearly gone crazy sometimes by one memory so Aleithia should never never be able to carry all the memories
Minister: Charis, I have good news for you in regard to these memories - Aleithia does not need to relive them and you can be free of them. That is the good news of the power and love of Yah'shua. He heals bad memories.
Victim: I have them I can't loose them
Minister: That's the wonderful thing, you CAN lose them, and I will explain how, if you want me to.
Minister: Ok. Do you remember any of Aleithia's births?
Minister: Was she in much pain during them?
Victim: The first one nearly killed her.
Minister: Right. And can you remember how she felt AFTER the birth?
Minister: Right. And ready to do it again? Yes!
Victim: That surprised me so much
Minister: This, Charis, is a principle of pain and love. The joy of the new born baby makes the pain of the labour disappear -- not completely, but almost. Do you agree?
Victim: Maybe it has to be like that.
Victim: Aleithia use to say sometimes if the woman gives birth woman to the first baby and the man the second, there will never be more than three babies! A kind of joke! I hope I didn't upset you, after all you are a man!
Minister: No, no, not at all. It's ok, I am tough!
Minister: You have all been through unspeakable pain and suffering. The joy of the child removed most of the pain of the labour. Agreed?
Minister: You all have been through unspeakable pain and suffering - agreed?
Victim: Yes I think so
Minister: Satan has done pretty much his worst on you all. I think you are all fantastic! But this is the good news: The love, joy, peace and healing of Yah'shua is MILLIONS of times greater than the worst Satan can do to you. When you receive Yah'shua it will be like after the birth of a child. That is what I am trying to tell you - THAT is why Aleithia is so strong now
[Conversation interrupted by demon]
Light and darkness are not just opposites - the light swallows up the darkness just as Moses' serpent swallowed up the serpents of Pharaoh's occultic magicians.
"Death is swallowed up in victory.
O Death, where is your sting?
O Hades (hell), where is your victory?"
(1 Cor.15:54-55, NKJV).
Does this still sound fantastic to you? Unbelievable? If so, that is because of the nature of darkness. For it is written:
Darkness cannot understand the light. You, who have lived in darkness for so long, can never understand the light until you have entered into it. Light can understand darkness and light, but darkness has never understood light. Indeed, darkness is scared of the light for this very reason, because it is such an unknown quantity.
"In the beginning was the Word (Yah'shua/Jesus), and the Word (Yah'shua/Jesus) was with God (Elohim), and the Word (Yah'shua/Jesus) was God (Elohim). He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it" (John 1:1-5, NKJV).
Your invitation is to come into the light and watch the Light of the World, Yah'shua the Messiah (Jesus Christ), heal your memories and take your pain upon Himself. This is what He wants to do. This is why He came to earth to die a terrible death on a cross at Calvary. He came to take your pain, shame, guilt, sense of worthlessness, and sin away ... if you will just let Him.
What about the demons? Once you have received Yah'shua (Jesus) you have the authority to expell the demons yourself, or ask your minister to do it for you (by giving him your permission to act in your name). Then you will be completely free.