24 April 2010 (Shibi'i/Shabbat)|
Day #40, 5934 AM
Things You Never Knew About Yourself
Most of us become aware at sometime that we are driven by mysterious impulses, thoughts and feelings which seem very alien to us (Rom.7). Not infrequently they are demonic forces at work within the soul, present within us because we have given them legal rights of access and residence because of broken commandments and belief in lies. However, they are not the only mysterious 'drives' in us that sometimes break to the surface and surprise us. Sometimes they are facets or fragments of ourselves (sub-personalities, alters), long denied or suppressed who, like someone drowning, are every now and then forced to the surface to breathe. There are other things hidden inside us too but I will speak more of them at the end.
Last night I had a curious dream that relates to my Josephite Egyptian ancestry. For those of you who may not be aware, the Patriarch Joseph, son of Jacob (Israel), married Asenath, the daughter of the Egyptian High Priest of On. Joseph's two sons, Ephraim and Manasseh, would eventually fulfil their father's patriarchal blessing (Gen.48:8-22; 49:22-26) and spread out across the earth following the Assyrian deportations of the Northern Kingdsom of Israel. The people of Britain, Canada, the USA, Australia, New Zealand and parts of South Africa are largely decendants of Joseph and his Egyptian wife. In consequence, we have inherited Egyptian generational sins which occasionally disturb our peace when they pop to the surface or modify our otherwise 'familiar' behaviour.
I dreamed that there had been some flooding of our home (in real life we have had a lot of winter damage from melting ice) and that I was rushing around digging channels to divert the water that was coming into rooms below ground level. During the course of my excavations underground (representing my looking at my subconscious) I came across a tiny lit room, cube-shaped and painted white, and lying on the floor was what looked something like like a cigar box. I picked it up and opened it, filled with curiosity. Inside were tiny figures and figurines of Egyptian deities, no bigger than about an inch tall, which I fingered to lift and look at. There must have been several dozen of them. I was about to close the lid when the little deities (demons) suddenly became alive, leaped out of the box, and fled out of the room down one of the subterranean corridors. I pursued them with vigour and with hammer in hand, crushed them one by one. There was no hesitation on my part...I knew exactly what they were. I was dealing with a set of generational sins which has been passed down freom my ancestors over the millennia.
It is very important to deal with generational sins because they bring curses with them to us and to our children - that is why they are called 'generational' because they are passed on (if undealt with) from one generation to the next. Families who seem to be cursed by divorce, sexual identity problems, occultism, alcoholism, suicide and other issues frequently discover that there are generational problems that are the root cause. They feel trapped by 'destiny' or 'fate' when in fact the problem comes from the past and is burried within. Family lines carry all sorts of spiritual garbage with them until someone in the family is born-again and can get the resurrection power of Yah'shua the Messiah working for them to break these curses. Sometimes quite a prayer struggle can ensue.
"'Is not My word like a fire?' says Yahweh, 'and like a hammer that breaks the rock in pieces?'" (Jer.23:29, NKJV).
Our responsibility as regenerated believers is to get this junk out both for ourselves and for our children for they pass to our children when they are conceived. It is, moreover, a mistake to think we can just 'hide' these things in the hope that by burying or suppressing them that they won't come and bother us. That never works, If you are an unbeliever, every sin issue - generational as well as personal - that is not resolved in the blood of Messiah will arise to condemn that soul to hell. And if we are believers, genuinely trusting in Yah'shua, then He will force these things to the surface to deal with them...or not. It is our choice:
I am not sure what brought my box of generational idols to the surface - 'flu that's lasted a month or more now, financial crisis, or other trouble - but Yah'shua brought it to the surface, and for that I am grateful.
"For there is nothing hidden which will not be revealed, nor has anything been kept secret but that it should come to light" (Mark 4:22, NKJV).
All hidden things are revealed at some point - hidden thoughts, hidden feelings, hidden motives, hidden ambitions and hidden sins. That is the blessing of being a blood-bought servant of Messiah for we have a spiritual physician who desires us to be free. Satan, on the other hand, masquerading as a physician, assistant and comforter (but who in reality is a dangerous quack), supplies all kinds of remedies in the form of meditations, yoga, crystals, contacting the dead, New Age healings, false religion, our own good works (which we are deceived into thinking will 'buy' us deliverance) and so on, which just bring us into even more bondage. No, these things must be dealt with by making some major choices:
People are committing fornication, adultery, idolatry and numerous other abominations which are shameful and a disgrace that they must deal with before Yahweh exposes them and casts them into the lake of fire. Many of these people claim to be believers but "handle the word of Elohim deceitfully", twisting its meaning in order to justify themselves.
"...we have renounced the hidden things of shame, not walking in craftiness nor handling the word of Elohim deceitfully, but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of Elohim" (2 Cor.4:2, NKJV).
Well, these are the bad things that are hidden in us, but there are good things too for those who believe, trust and obey Yah'shua the Messiah (Jesus Christ). Here is one of them:
Now this is good news! If we have died - truly died - to sin and our old life apart from Yah'shua - and if we have said 'yes' to the resurrection and to life everlasting, and if we are clinging to Yah'shua for our present and our future, then our "life is hidden with Messiah in Elohim". We are safe! We are secure! We have it made no matter what happens in the external, no matter what calamity may strike us. We don't have to worry about the eternities at all, we don't have to fear death or be left to wonder what there is 'on the other side'.
"For you died, and your life is hidden with Messiah in Elohim. When Messiah who is our life (chayyim) appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory" (Col.3:3-4, NKJV).
I made my decision on 30 March 1977 in Oxford, England. It was the day I was born-again, in the privacy of my room at university, and apart from any church, religion or organised system, for that is how our spiritual life must begin. It is our Passover, our 'passing over' from death into life, from slavery into freedom, from despair into hope. And all because of Christ, our Passover Lamb.
As believers we are to take our focus away from the external - from the way we look and dress and behave - and concern ourselves with the way of the heart...with our character, so that what we do outside comes naturally and in harmony with the Ruach haQodesh (Holy Spirit):
Though this passage refers to wives in their proper relationship to their husbands, it is also true of all believers in their relationship as the allegorical wife of Messiah Yah'shua. This is the fruit of a soul hidden up in Yahweh through Messiah. What a blessing! However, the battle is not over when we are born-again (or more properly, conceived-again) for we must walk the Way (Ac.9:2; 19:9,23) - which is the Torah-Way IN Messiah - one step at a time, getting sin out of our lives - the visible and the hidden (Unleavened Bread), committing ourself publically to Messiah through an inner and outer baptism of new birth (Firstfruits), commiting ourselves to each other in Messiah through a Torah-walk (Pentecost, which is our betrothal to Messiah), and then completing the race (2 Tim.4:7; Heb.12:1) as we prepare for the return of Messiah (Trumpets), the judgment of Yahweh (Day of Atonement) before the grand and glorious consummation which is the Marriage Feast of the Lamb (Tabernacles). All of this requires a wrestle, as Jacob wrestled with the messenger at Jabbok, until we have finally overcome and obtain the last of the hidden gifts of Elohim:
"Do not let your adornment be merely outward... rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of Elohim" (1 Peter 3:3-4, NKJV).
This is the spiritual food that true believers eat and which becomes their exclusive spiritual diet the more they overcome. The less attracted to the world they become as their attraction for Messiah increases, the more of this food is supplied to them. May this be our quest so that when Messiah returns we will both recognise Him and be recognised by Him. For that is one meeting I do not want to go wrong. So out with that which enslaves us, and in with Messiah and the New Life! Amen.
"To him who overcomes I will give some of the hidden manna to eat" (Rev.2:17, NKJV).
Comments from Readers
Thank you for the message. It is SO refreshing to hear someone speaking truths without denominational doctrines! I learned about generational curses 10 years ago and have been helping people with these curses ever since. I also studied at Ellel Grange in England in 2003 which also taught on these. SO REFRESHING! Thank you again. We don't hear these truths from pulpits today! Yah bless! (FB, USA, 25 April 2010)
I see the parallel between your article, and the few lines I penned in my profile ...Yeshua who healed me but in a way that taught me so many things that became so precious to me. Areas of joy and sorrow I never knew existed in me, but that were unique to me, that only He could reveal to me.
I remember talking to friends in the early stages of conversion saying coming to know and experience Jesus Yeshua is like after you have met the girl or woman who becomes the love of your life. She triggers and touches so many areas of your life and being that you wondered how you ever existed before... and the love, the tenderness, the care, the willingness to let go so much of self because of the other....more so with Christ Yeshua. There is no one like you, He replies there is no one like you.
I was lost between the ages of 15 and 43 and only came back to faith because I was in spiritual trouble, thats when I made a commitment to Yeshua and was born again. For many years I was concerned about the time I had abandoned my Christian life but one day when I leaving church service I suddenly had a vision of the years between 15 and 43 belly down from what appeared as a the straight line of my life and vanish for every.. it was as those years never existed. Yeshua had taken it from me.
In my early spiritual battles, ( little did I know the battle is the Lord's Yeshua) people would tell me to put on the breast plate of righteousness, etc etc so I would go throught all the sentences and the enemy would laugh at me and torment me by saying .. too late I have already attacked you... But Yahweh Elohim through Yeshua His mighty warrior Son advanced me so that as soon as I thought of covering myself with the "whole armour of God", I could see I was already covered... these days I accept it is the covering of the Blood of Saviour Yashua. Later on further growth was granted with His Holy words from Scripture..."even before you have called I have answered".
By virtue of my own life experience with Yahweh and Savour Yeshua, I know we have all the tools necessary to navigate through this life, under their watchful Providence. My own belief is that travelling through life with out the guidance of the Holy Spirit is like being in the ocean with out a rudder, one can be all over with no destination. To each on Yahweh has lovingly created he has given as much as is required for the state of life He has created that person for.
Thoughts are subtle. They can do so many positive things and alternately so many negative things. Its easy to see that if the enemy can work through thought impulses then he can achieve so much destruction while being hidden. Yet christian leaders and parents also are unable to help educate especially the young how to handle their bad thoughts. That one doesnt have to follow through and act out the negative,
that one has a choice.
Like you say in your article my ancestors/last generation relatives also have committed grievances against Yahweh Elohim. I grew up with this think (demon/spirit) till Yeshua called me to live in Him I was under its control even though I thought then that I was doing my own thing. As I had trying to clean up and sought so many areas for possible entry and contamination I was unsuccessful. Some times when one looks beyond self and seeks to help others in need... Yahweh Elohim looks after ours. Hanging on by a thread was the form of the wrong person as "God-mother". Repentance on behalf of others who didnt know better ... and more especially the precious Blood of Saviour Yeshua, removed it forever.
On being born again each one has quite a unique experience. I was at the drawing board at home this evening when the Name Moses came to my mind. So I looked at it in Yeshua. I heard I was the Moses of the family line. So not knowing how to read all this I looked at Jesus Yeshua. He said for how many generations have I been waiting for one soul to come open to Me so that I may pour out my Mercy into your line! So I repented of all sins that were brought to mind on behalf of my ancestors and my wifes also and all the bloodlines that were also brought into union through holy marriage. In Yeshua's Grace I saw that this was huge line rlaring out backwards throught the generations gone and like wise I pleaded and surendered all the generations yet to come, that no one in our line be lost but that Yeshua would their Saviour.
Being a sinner who is forgiven and restored to holy son-ship by Yahweh Elohim through His Loving Son Yeshua ( No son could love a Father like He does). I look upon Him, Yahweh Elohim and Yeshua Elohim and say...
How Great is Your Mercy Lord, so Great is Your Love.
How Great is Your Love Lord, so Great is Your Mercy. (JW, Australia, 25 April 2010)