Set Apart and Ready
for Yahweh's Kingdom
We begin life small and delicate, desiring hope and life and a destiny. We start with a hope of life, but as we go through life, we learn that death is inevitable. We learn how hopeless this world really is and how we can not run away from it. In a hope to find peace and harmony and balance, as an innocent child, we actually find destruction, hatred, cursing towards Yahweh and hurt on every side. We learn as small children how to put up blocks so that these hurting arrows can not peirce our souls, and we learn to be our own covers and protectors in one way or another. Perhaps it is because our own fathers were not enough of a covering for us, for if our fathers do not have a proper covering themselves, they are indeed naked. I remember always wanting a covering of love and protection from my father, one of unconditional love and support and something that I could not control or move, but something I could lay under, like under the shade of a tree's branches. This is something that every child yearns for and needs for comfort and stability. But unfortunatly, we come to this earth with no covering and no shelter and nothing to abide under. We come naked, and truely we are naked. A couple months ago, about in February, I wrote an article on Fathers, Torah, and Yahweh's love, as well as the meaning of pentecost. The truth is that if we do not grow up with proper coverage and a proper father, we wander as young children and we learn to put up guards. We learn as small children how cruel and cold this earth really is, and we want nothing more than to run away from it and into our own little worlds!
The purpose of this article I am writing is simple and very understandable: Our hearts need someone to identify with, and that is Yah'shua. You see, we were all created to be in His image and His likeness but when we were not brought up in the way we should be, we fall apart, literally, inside. Our system or soul becomes divided and we no longer fallow on His path of love and simplicity, but we infact become divided in heart and desire more than one way. These are all coping mechanisms. One part of us desires to deal with pressures and pains one way, and these ways are either learned or not learned. Over time we feel we can not do this anymore or learn that this way is no longer alright, so we choose a different way of coping. Then when faced with the same situation, we are not sure what to do because we have too many options. I am learning that what confusion is is not of Yahweh. Our systems splitting creates confusion and causes so much turmoil and pain and hurt than we could ever imagine and we learn to cope with that. We learn and teach ourselves to run from things in order to stay 'safe' and then no one can find or get us. But the truth is that not knowing the truth of our situations and our feelings causes us to run to a unknown or better state of mind that, at that time, is better. Now I am beginning to learn that running is not the best way to cope but is actually a way of making ourselves more divided. We run from the pain and are actually running into hecate's arms, which is full of bitterness, anger, and dispair. We repeat this cycle and all that comes out of it is a divided heart and soul. I praise Yahweh for His prophets and Yah'shua; that they came to bring life and life more abundantly, because now we have no reason to be double minded. He has brought us the truth and our hearts love the truth naturally!
A couple of months ago, my husband and I did theophostic with me in order to find out what was bothering me so greatly. I felt really small and unable to deal with certain situations and was absolutely terrified and confused by what was going on around and inside me. No, I was not in really any danger. But in my own mind, I thought I was because of all my childhood memories and all the pressure and hurts I grew up with. I seriously thought that I was in danger and that my life was at stake, and I became unstable in my actions and thoughts. I was, in fact, living out a childhood memory and protection mechanism that I held onto because of the instability of my parents and surroundings. I learned that even as a child when my parents would push me away and not want to spend any time with me and I relented into my own little childhood 'playhouse' and that Yahweh was, infact, still with me. He was nurturing that small child inside the whole time when I was young and even growing up! He never had left me after all. I am beginning to learn that Yahweh is not as distant as we think, even during difficult and unsaved times. He is a Father to the fatherless, even to those who's parents are not saved and the children themselves. He desires to comfort the widows and to those who have no proper family, He wants to give them one! His kingdom is all about peace and love and security. And when I found these things out, I was so happy because I had not ever, not once in my life, been seperated from Him. You see, there is a special place in everyone's hearts where we are totally receptive to Yahweh's truth and His word. This is the part that Yahweh and His Ruach haQodesh speaks to. It is our real selves, the person we were born to be and our inner child, the one who truely trusts and opens up like a child usually does. And when this part is abused, we split into, sometimes, many different parts and we learn to cope with all the confusion going on inside and around us.
A couple days ago I found this scripture in the Psalms and it benifited my heart at that time:
"Teach me to walk in your ways, O Yahweh, and I will walk in your truth; Give me an undivided heart, that I might fear your name" (Psalm 86:11).
Walking in His ways and in His truth is His desire for us. This was the person that we were created to be. We were not created to be double minded or stupid. We were created to walk in His ways and truth and to fear His Name, all while having an undivided heart. When our hearts are divided, we want more than one path and more than one truth and way. We can not fear Him because His truth is mixed up with other lies. Satan is the author of confusion, and where there are lies mixed with truths, you can be sure to be double minded! We should stay away from all double mindedness by fearing His Name and staying on His truth and path.
Not all too long ago, I used to think how hard it was to deny something that I thought was apart of me. It was so demanding! It put such heavy demands upon my heart that I could barely breath. And I learned that instead of identifying with the truth and with what Yahweh desires that I be, I switched out of focus to a more blurry site and instead identified with the carnal nature and it's desires. I declared in my heart that I am apart of my carnal nature and how could I not fulfill it's desires when it just wanted to be heard? I had heard before that the part of us Yahweh wants to lead is the one that trusts Him the most, that is unquestioning and does not deny Yahweh or hate Him. Since before time it has walked with Him and knows Him, but I didn't exactly understand what all of this meant. So I decided instead to fallow the parts of me that identified with the flesh, the part of me that I knew the best, and I got into so much trouble! When finally I broke down and asked Yahweh where I started going wrong. I knew that I had to be doing wrong somewhere and accepting some lie for me to be fallowing and identifying with the carnal side of myself. I felt like in order to stay unified and to be sane that I had to control people and their behaviors. But I was wrong, because that was my old carnal way of staying secure, and according to Yahweh's word, my security comes in Yah'shua now. I found a scripture that benifits this article:
Now I always used to ask Yahweh what exactly does that last part in this scripture means, and i've finally learned that He, Yah'shua, is all perfect unity and true echad of mind, body, soul, and spirit! He is the way we as humans are supposed to be. He was the only human to ever die single minded, because He stayed on Yahweh's path and never swayed off of it! When we are set-apart for His kingdom, we are choosing to discern ourselves with Yahweh's laws and His People, thus staying in tact or whole. It is being set-apart in our hearts to Him and letting Him control our stability and our souls and lives, letting Him be our Lord and God once again. When we have Yah'shua as our Lord, we set ourselves apart in our hearts for His purposes by cutting our carnal selves off and perserving the true self. This is what true peace and safety is. And deep in our hearts, we yearn to be submissive to something more dominating than ourselves. We yean to be dependant upon something Indipendant. I have learned that Yahweh is the only Person that is Indipendant.. Ever!! Everyone else is dependant upon someone or something, but not Yahweh! He is totally indipendant and wants to give as a parent because He is the Ultimate Parental Figure. He is a Mother and a Father in One and also we have a Sibling and Savior through Yahweh; This is His ultimate plan and how lovely it is, if we would but submit ourselves to His rightous authority and yearn for Righteousness.
"So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in Elohim's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to Elohim - through Yah'shua the Messiah our Master!" (Rom 7:21-25).
Sometimes when our personality is divided, they are dragged off into the fleshy parts of ourselves, because afterall, these parts did decided to become independant from Yahweh and from their real self. They simply chose to fallow a more complicated path away from their hearts, which is a fleshy path. And what results is a part of ourselves expecting themselves to be something other than what they are. And in the end, they are so confused with what they are used to as apposed to what Yahweh expects of them. When our actions are not corrected and we let sin rule us and do not become unified in heart, what results is death, or severe confusion. Often we see schizophrenic or severely abused individuals with serious confusions and doubts as to who they are or what they should do. It is really hard for them to do something start to finish because they have so many ways of wanting to do it or so many things they want to do. I honestly used to believe that it was me going out doing whatever I wanted in order to find peace, but it is not. As a matter of fact, the more my heart comes to KNOW the truth of Yah'shua, the more I am delivered and the less division I have. We were originally created to know His truth and not be so divided, because anything that creates confusion is not of Yahweh, AT ALL! So you can forget those areas in your heart that exalts itself up above Yahweh's throne and above Him, and ask Yahweh to burn it, because it is not infact yourself that is stating these things, but DEMONS! Yes, most people are demonised and they don't even know it. The more they come to Yahweh and the more Yahweh shines His light of truth through and on their hearts, the more peace and unity of heart they have, simply because Yah'shua is the Author of Perfect Peace and unity.
I always used to think how hard it was to not be able to find peace because I constantly identified myself with these lies of not knowing right from wrong and not knowing what true, good, and perfect peace is. But now I am learning that the truth is so simple that children fallow it! Why? Because they are trusting and not so divided in their hearts and minds. They can hear sound doctrine and reply to it. This is why only children can enter the kingdom of Yahweh. We are so far away from who we really are and what we really should be, that by now we should be dead! But He has had so much mercy on us, because He knows our failures and our weaknesess and how our ancestors have messed up and we are just a product of it. He knows this. He knows how the curses spread from family to family. But if it were not for Yah'shua, the wretchedness would continue and spread, so it had to stop somewhere. And His kingdom is a good one, free from confusion and abuse and hurt. It is truely for those who are meek and mild, because if the complicated tried to enter, they'd never find the door! I once had a funny thought of this tall tall person trying to enter this door created for a small child, about the age of 4 or 5. They tried and tried to be small enough to enter the door but they could not enter through the door because he was just too big!! And being frustrated, he left and decided to give up. We must be chopped down and rebuilt for His kingdom, dispite our hurts and prides of life. We must be willing to conform to His image and let Him teach us, because Paul clearly states in 1 Corinthians chapter 6:
And Yah'shua even taught about those who preserve their lives and the earth through obeying His torah:
"Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of Elohim? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders 10 nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God" (1 Cor.6:9-10).
According to this scripture, we must keep ourselves worthy of His kingdom. We must preserve ourselves through Him and by complete obedience to His torah. This is how we stay salty, as Yah'shua stated. Becoming worthy of His kingdom is not at all hard. We stay dependant upon Him and not upon ourselves and our own understanding. We let go and just trust Him, that He will help us, He can and He knows our needs before we ask, that is what parents do, they are total watch towers over their children and whomever Yahweh desires them to watch over. This is actually what spiritual coverage is. Yahweh just requires that we repent and become as little children. We come to Him on a meek and child-like level instead of on our own levels and we must be willing that our carnal nature be burnt as a pleasing sacrafice unto Yahweh. May the child, who is pleasing in Yahweh's sight and heart, lead in us and may we hold Yahweh's hand as we trust, Amein.
"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men" (Matthew 5:13).
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